hello lover

hello good morning. today i feel so refreshed and it's quite an awesome feeling. (can't say the same for my stomach but that's my fault for not having some self-control and acting foolishly)  this picture speaks what i really want to do/am feeling/and so on.

i know i've said this a million times but i'm going to say it again.  i need a holiday.  i miss traveling.

the xx + florence and the machine was pleasantly impressive.  i was quite impressed with florence (she sounds so awesome live! better than the album!) and it was good spending some time with jonny lee as well.  we headed to no. 5 for some food and drinks after the show and caught up quite a bit.  i miss times like these where you're able to have conversations that aren't just superficial.  not that i have been having those sort of conversations but, just saying.

i am up earlier than what i have been compared to the last week and yes, february has arrived earlier than expected.  i cooked some cod roe pasta for lunch.  i don't have to call for a cab (success!) mom's using the car today so i am getting a free ride. i have no class tonight so i'm going to head home and rest(besides my daily task of doing some thesis work..)

although this week is quite the killer week before the chinese new year is here (and haven't bought clothes) i believe that today is the start of a great week.


go have a coffee, will you?

I am exhausted.  I am questioning a lot of things.
Also, I will NOT answer "CAN YOU PUT ME ONE XXXX GUESTLIST?" 1. No - i don't know you 2. No - I dont know you. phone calls jst now..


OK. Good night lovers.

I suddenly really miss music school.  What am I good at?

I haven't been doing the best these days but just keeping it together.  It's strange how when I want to just go back into my shell but somehow people just come in and that interrupts with me retreating back.  It's like, something is stopping me from going back to that place again.
It is strange but there's always that constant struggle, you know what i mean?

The week has been mightily exhausting.  I'm sick, down with the flu.  I have my first draft to complete (which I've only started planning but whatever) and the damn report that has been floating around for the longest time.  God, I really question why I'm doing this and what I want out of this.  It's so hard to remember why I'm doing this and I don't know if this is what I really want to do because it's tough.  Or am I just running away because it is tough?  I mean, escaping is a skill I possess afterall.  Will I be able to rise up?

Yes, I will. I must.

So while I contemplate the boring and exhausting routine, have a great weekend ahead.  It's Thursday.  Go grab a latte and read a book.  Listen to some good music and remember to give thanks.
 

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I think this picture sums up how I've been feeling these days.  How have you been?

Hello so here it is, another year and a bunch of dreams lost or forgotten (or maybe achieved)  How has 2009 been for you?  I would have thought that perhaps I didn't quite achieve anything this year and wasted my entire year away doing nothing worthy.  But we have to be thankful in all things don't we?  So I made a list (don't you love making lists!) of the things I'm thankful for in 2009. 

1. I graduated with a Diploma in Arts Management.
2.  I am thankful for surviving the year of heartaches despite turning 21.
3.  While I have lost friends this year, I made new ones as well. (RIP)
4.  I had my huge long holiday in Australia.
5.  God's faithfulness and promises.

It's pretty summarized and while it hasn't been an easy year, I'm glad it's over and I'm excited (in a good and bad way) to enter 2010.  A few things to anticipate in the coming year would be:

1.  Graduating with a BA(Hons) in Arts Management
2.  Getting started in driving lessons and a license
3.  Entering the working adult society for real.
4.  A holiday (or many holidays)
5.  Getting more things right with God.

I don't know about you but even though I seem like a pretty outgoing person (even more so when I work for a club and club) I like to spend my new year's quietly with friends/family.  There's so much more meaning in that than having to battle it out with the rest of the world who's out to welcome and enter the new year with a bang. 


This year, I'm recollecting what I can and letting go of everything else as I enter 2010.
How about you?

 

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